I stand in line, intently,
Cautiously,
Gazing at those next to me
Could that be you?
A broken umbrella slams on the ground
A pistol firing in a crowd of
Stillness.
Heads turn from all directions, conversation bubbling
Among a collage of startled faces.
I smell smoke.
Take a step back, now, turn away
Catch my reflection in a nearby window
I am scared.
Rapidly, roughly, rushing civilians pass me
As the red flames lick at the grass below
I push my way through out onto Winston Avenue. Am I lost?
I am not visible to these countless people,
Crushing me from all directions. I am lost.
I am a puppet, my strings attached to a hand of greater power
I do as is its will
After all, what joy can I hope to find if I’m not celebrated
By others?
I look down, close my eyes
Were I to push her back, force her to look at me,
Might she then give me mercy?